Nickelback and life!

I love Nickelback...!
i am a big fan of alternative rock and Nickelback is on top of the list.
I love their Savin' Me song and video:
check out their music video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8y4W5Iuaq9M&feature=TopRated&page=2&t=w&f=b

This music video really put some things into perspective; it has been a year since I have been thinking of coming out!
I think this will finally happen on the day of my birthday!
i am planning to tell my best friends... I must be crazy!
there are days when I am so sure that I want other people to know...but there are times I just want to shrink and crawl into a dark hidden space.

Sometimes I hate that I don't have the courage...
but life is too short, as seen in the Nickelback video.
I don't want to live a life full of lies...
and I want to meet someone who will care for me and love me.
Will this happen?
i have absolutely no clue
I hate the saying "there is someone for everyone".
Is that really true?

so many questions...but very little answers.
Life is such a difficult quest.