This was what i posted a while ago:
Behind these hazel eyes...
When listening to Kelly Clarkson's song called "Behind these hazel eyes", it reminds me of the many secrets and feelings that exist within a person. I too am a person full of secrets with an unknown identity, so this is why this blog is coming to birth. I don't know why I have these sudden urges to start a blog or write down my feelings but I thought it would be a great way to share my pent up feelings to the world. My blog won't be full of bright colors or flashy pictures... just words that flow from my head and heart. I'm just hoping that writing in this blog will help me understand my feelings in a profound way. I think I am bisexual and it has been very confusing lately. I don't know how people around me will react if they found out. More importantly, how can I live my life this way... if it is a lie? There are many times I feel guilty to myself for not being true to myself. I'm just hoping it will all work out...my smile is almost like a dark alley on the streets of NY. I'm full of hidden secrets and it is not easy to navigate but at the end there are so many mysteries to be revealed. I can't imagine anyone reading this...heck, who would read this? I guess these overwhelming feelings are starting to swell up because of NY...when I see gays, lesbians, etc. on the streets I wonder why can't I come out too...?
I don't get it...the world can be harsh
I'm in a hole and want to crawl out...and open up to the world!
to be continued...
"John Doe"
--------------------------------------------------------------2005, wow! time does fly...and now i'm in college!my mind and spirit is revived and this blog will be too!BE ON THE LOOKOUT!I'M BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
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1 Comments:
Many things change, some you can control, others happen when you least expect then and require you to adapt to survive; and yet others take you on a journey that make you redefine your perceptions of yourself.
When you are comfortable with who you truly are, another adventure will start. You will discover many feeling you never knew where possible.
But the biggest risk is to expose your heart to the world.
The more you open yourself to new experiences, the higher the risk of being hurt. But then that is part of the journey to love and self acceptance.
You have to decide how fast you want to travel into the realities of the world. The first steps face many hurdles we tend to place on ourselves. Everybody has expectation of who you should be, and will become. But remember you have to find your own way. No step you take, or decision you make is wrong. Some are just harder than others.
Don't let fear of the world, turn to regret. The sadness behind hazel eyes does not have to define your live.
Life and love is hard, being alone is harder. Too many guys fear reprisals from a world that does not understand that love between two guys can be beautiful.
Life is a sum total of experiences, to have to live with the sadness, and remember the lives that you laughed, smiled and loved with your total being. and never regret not loving those who make you happy, no matter how short that love was given. It will live with you forever.
Embrace change. You have the right to be happy and at peace with what your soul wants. And if you change your mind, thats ok too.
Sorry this may be a bit much.
P
12:30 PM
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